Second-Best Girl
How long will I be
second pick, best-friend-of-the-right-one girl?
How often must I meet somebody good
only to be asked for advice on the best way to ask my friend out
I don’t mind
she’s beautiful and smart and outgoing and everything im not
but ill never stop wishing
i could be first pick, front-line, head-turning girl
it feels sick to hope that she’ll turn them down, so maybe i can be the next best thing to them
I know its not right
and I don’t need somebody to make me whole
but it would be nice
to have somebody to be whole with
i envy my best friends outgoing nature
she is bold and courageous and everything im not
and at times i wish i had that spark
but i dont want to have to change my personality to make people like me
is it wrong to want to meet one person who will want to hold my hand instead
Who will tell me im smart, im cute
without ever having wanted her first
i do not resent my friend
i do not resent the boys
it is neither of their faults that they didn’t fall for me
maybe i should try harder
but sometimes i see the way people look at her
and i wish i could be
somebodys first-pick, never second best, head-turning, butterfly-inducing, star-striking girl