Although you may look at me and see nothing but smiles,

I'm sure it's hard to believe I've been hurting for a while

 

Some things just never go away

All that pain, guilt, is here to stay

 

There has been times where I've just laid in bed at night

Saying, "I wish I was strong enough to take my own life"

 

The open wounds that have been caused by myself and so many others

Seem to be unnoticeable; I guess I just do a good job of hiding under the covers

 

I really wish I knew how to bring this topic about,

Wish I could scream to the world, "Watch the words that come out of your mouth!"

 

The silent notions I portray

Still go unnoticed, I go through hell everyday

 

The scars, you will never see on my arms, they're hidden by bracelets

I guess you can say I just go through the motions, like I have a mask on, like I'm faceless

 

The things people say, I bury them down, deep inside

Everything would be much easier if I just ended it; just died

 

You may not know where I'm coming from, only a handful do

There's nothing, no nothing, that makes me want to pull through

 

I've dug myself deep, and you just pile the dirt on highe

I trust no one, no one, everyone's a liar

 

I may seem alive, but inside I'm dead

Walking around like a zombie, without a head

 

I never understood how someone could be so cruel

Maybe one day you'll notice when I don't show up at school

 

Pointing out others flaws to make yourself seem perfect

Could be the trigger that sets them off, is all that really worth it?

 

Dehuminizing others to make yourself seem more desirable,

Could make someone go insane, make that gun seem more reliable

 

Depression, anxiety, self-harm, and more

The few that recognize these choose to ignore

 

I will never seem weak in front of you

You'll find out how strong I am, to this statement I'll remain true

 

I will make it through this even though I don't want to

I promise you, I'll make it through, I'll make it through, I'll make it through