Ruddy
Location
Ruddy, thats what they call my complexion
A mix of pure white and dots
I am calico
The contours of my body are softly proportioned
a little extra here and there but I am muscled
I am strong
My figure, they call it hourglass
but I don't fit the bill for beauty
Unlike Miss Monroe I wasn't graced with pretty blonde hair and money
I have ginger hair
made up of all hues of orange, red and yellow
like dull fire
Beautiful?
The old ladies outside of walmart think so
but I hardly believe Cover Girl would take a second look at my headshot
Grey, green and blue my eyes are the color of a raging sea when you look closely
but from far away they are faded like concrete.
Isn't that just grand?
Models on catwalks
you can see them from a mile away
bright lipstick
bleach blond hair
tall
then add on layers of photoshop, crop it and you have
"Perfection"
or Beauty by our societies definition
which they are
which I am
which we all are
someone once said to me that
"we can't all be beautiful"
but they have missed the point
Thats is what ugly really is
yes we are human
we judge
but I don't remember god making a list of what the perfect person should look like
from the birth of this world beauty has "changed"
But in reality it is always constant
its perception
if we percievce differently
beauty is then different
No one is the same
yet we all have that one thing in common
when we confine a word and make it singular
we exclude a part of being human
We shape young girls to believe it because we believe it ourselves
but we hold more the power to change it
we hold the defintion in our hands
no fashion magazine can tell us what we are
unless we accept it for ourselves
So I have chosen to at least accept myself
I have changed MY definition
I am unflitered beautiful
for now