Make me a drop of rain, so when I hit the ground

I can be released from my pain.

Make me a drop of rain so no matter where I go

even in my deepest sorrows I can be beautiful.

You have changed me forever,

twisted my mind and numbed my heart,

you tore me apart.

If I was a drop of rain it would rain all day and you would be forced to listen to my song of    

pain.

I wish I had a normal brain,

I wish you could feel my pain,

I wish I was the same person I used to be but you have changed me.

I do not want to be this person.

I wanna be rain or a bird so then I could fly from the pain,

I would fly high in the sky but for now I cry

and sometimes I even want to die. I walk around and say “this is my fault”

but I know that is a lie.

I’m so sick of feeling this way

I feel this every fucking day.

I wanna be happy,

I wanna smile

I don’t wanna have pain that feels like it can stretch out for miles, and I swear my pain can make piles and grow into mountains. The mountains will pass the sky and I wouldn't have to lie about feeling fine, then they would cry. They would cry so much that no-one will ever forget what you have done. I don’t wanna run.

This is why I beg to be rain, to be released from my chains. Now you see why life is more than a game to me.