
Product Of My Past
Born in Nebraska, raised in Omaha, just a small town girl with wild dreams
They told her she couldn't do it, that making it out of there was harder than it seems
Day after day, she became more and more reclusive
She went from a playful young girl, to one who was hardly active
No one knew the life she had at home, few bothered to ask if she was ok
No one knew she was watching her family fight, there was no time for play
At such a young age the depression set in, there was nothing left of her childhood
She began to lose all hope, she didn't know where her and her dreams stood
An 8 year old girl went from smiles and laughs, to just trying to make it through the day
With no one to talk to, all she did was pray
This was now her reality, she didn't know how to handle her fears
Fears turned into anxiety, that she would go on to suffer for years
Anxiety controlled every aspect of her life and made her just want to die
People began to ask questions, she would just lie
No one understood that the idea of leaving her room made her stomach churn
No one knew that going to school made her whole body burn
Everyone said "just relax, you'll be okay", but that's easier said than done
How could she focus on anything as her head spun
As she became a young woman, her anxiety only got worse
Always a nervous wreck, she never left the house without Pepto in her purse
Anxiety controlled her every decision. missing many opportunities
If only she could just "calm down" and enjoy life's beauty
She was coming to her wits end, decided she couldn't go on like this anymore
It was time to close this chapter of life and slam the anxiety door!
Sitting in the doctors office ashamed of her "mental illness" she just wanted to take control of her destiny
Two weeks later, the medicine kicked in, she had an epiphany
For the first time in a long time she felt normal
She wasn't sweating profusely, nauseous, or afraid to go to a formal
Of course she still got the occasional butterfly
But now her anxiety was under control, she didn't feel like she was going to die
Finally she could enjoy her life, do all the amazing things she could never do before
This was going to be the best chapter in her life, it opened so many new doors
Everything she had imagined for herself was slowly coming true
She was seeing life in all colors now, not just in blue
All of her goals were now possible
Life wasn't so terrifying anymore, she could overcome any obstacle
She became a strong, independent, courageous woman
For the first time in a long time, she felt human
She survived a sentence that no one should have to endure
Made a beautiful transformation from a hesitant girl, to a woman entrepreneur