Sometimes I hate my generation.
Each of us a carbon copy of the next.
iPhone, designer jackets, caffeinated beverage in hand.
I hate how we are so absorbed in social media
that we let ourselves get lost for hours
searching out information about someone else’s life.
I hate how our music is defecating on our language.
Terms like “bitch” and “slut” and “whore”
are used as words of endearment
like people want to be degraded to feel good.
And the people who worked so hard to put together
those resources we call
dictionary, thesaurus, grammar
have no concrete value anymore.
I hate that our great literature is being turned into a project.
Books, once desperately cherished, are obsolete
and good prose is “boring,”
fading away word by word
until they are nothing but the dust we all become.
Time spent on technological advances in gaming devices
surpasses the time spent in advances we find in things like medicine,
because we would rather be entertained for a couple moments each day
than have a couple moments more with a friend.
At least we act that way,
taking for granted the time we have now,
wasting it absorbed in ourselves,
absorbed in our vanity, selfishness, and better-than-you thinking,
that we end up regretting it all the moment our loved ones are gone.
I hate how our focus has changed from caring about the justice
each person deserves,
to a focus on beauty, perfection,
how the news takes more time focusing on
this celebrity and that celebrity
instead of showing us what has purpose
like the joining of two countries in peace
or the heroic acts of an individual in times of need.
I hate how ignorant people are
about the world,
about the news,
about their country,
about their own backyard,
because they believe every word they are fed by the media.
We don’t question things like we should anymore
and we let other people control how and what we learn.
We are able to escape from our daily lives
by turning on a television set, a computer, a cell phone,
instead of turning to each other to talk,
to listen, to understand, to help.
I hate that we have stopped trying to better ourselves
in our educational values, in social settings, in community,
and instead live only for
Me, Myself, and I.
I worry for our future generations.
My children’s children
who will be able to work out any tech problem that comes their way
but won’t be able to look each other in the eyes and say
Instead they will choose to mask themselves behind screens,
creating the lives they want to live,
but never getting up and making that difference.
I hate how
If not my generation, then whose?
Where do I put myself?
Every generation has its problems
and no one place will have all the solutions.
When’s the perfect time to live?
Maybe it is still to come.
Going any further back
would hinder my freedom because of my gender.
But moving forward into a new time
could result in further disappointment.
I do not want to settle.
I don’t want to be just another product of my generation.
I just want to be plain old me.
And I will give what it take to make a difference.