yesterday

i realized i am better now

and i was proud for the first time

since april

today

i took down the sheet

that has been covering my window

since may

tonight

i looked outside

for the first time

since june

this morning

i woke up and felt excited

for the first time

since july

this noon

i planned for a long time away

for the first time

since august

this night

i wrote a poem without being angry or sad

for the first time

in my life

this summer
i realized that gold and green

are not just colors

and

this summer

i realized that blue and black

can be happy

and

this summer

i realized

that i am

golden