Poem for a Scholarship
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There was a time when I would look into my lover's eyes and we would share secrets meant only for each other
But she left
So that happened
I always wonder
What she told the next guy
If he got the same secrets,
If he knew about her relationship with her mother
Her doubt about the existence of God
The way she feels about music and dancing and drugs
I wonder if she told him about me
But it doesn't really matter
Because she's gone now.
I don't mean to say that I loved her more than he does.
I did, but I'm not saying that.
I don't anymore, though.
I don't even think of her anymore.
Except
When I think about my relationship with my mother
My doubt about the existence of God
The way I feel about music and dancing and drugs.
Other than that
I don't even think of her that often.
But still more than anyone else.