Insanity- doing the same thing numerous times expecting a different result.

With you its an endless roller coaster that i can’t stop riding expecting it to not be as scary as the first thousand times. Running in circles of a closed box teaches you a few things. Like the moments when i thought you said i love you it was the faint sound of disappointment and you really meant i hate your fucking guts but, i was drowning in the illusion of hate masked as love. You scared my heart but never broke it and i took that as you being thoughtful. I loved you enough to sacrifice my sanity and my body. My body was a balloon to you ..if its there you cherish it but when you can’t reach it you walk away with no attachment and it was never that easy for me..i always wanted more and wouldn’t stand for less than what you had to offer..

Monophopia-The fear of being alone

Being with you was always better then being alone. Being with anybody was always better than having no one to love and no one to hold.. No One to depend on..I can’t live without you by my side and call me crazy . call me in sane but i just don’t want to cry by myself.. I needed you like a bird needs it’s wings and im sorry if i put up a fight evertime you say goodbye..I’m ok with being the only one who loves that you hate me.. Because being with you is better then being alone.

Achluophobia- Fear of darkness

I never want to close my eyes and see nothing.. I’m afraid of the dark, afraid that loneliness will creep into my soul and take over my body.. Why did you leave? i love you. I love you so much i let you hurt me inside and out.

Agliophobia- Fear of pain

Why am i no good? Why do you throw me away? Why don’t you love me? Please just, just love me..

Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.

Why can’t we be together? We are so magnetic.. I love you! Please im begging but, no one is listening..I’m pleading but, no one can hear me behind these glass walls.. My love is a hamster ball that corrupts my thinking and maybe i failed to let you know, maybe i fell too fast or too slow and i’m sorry if my pillow suffocated you.

Cardiophobia- Fear of the heart

My heart is too pure, so gentle but, my love is overbearing and suffocating..we should have ran when we had the chance.. we should have sat it out instead of danced.I should have stayed home the day we met.. Now my mind is scared to lend my heart some attention because it is scary it is of great weakness. It takes over the brain with such overbearing arms.. I am sorry i strangled yours.

Chronophobia- Fear of time

Alot of time has past and you probably won’t get this but wherever you may be, I still care, I’m still waiting