The People I Like
I always had a problem with liking people
My list of crushes has five names and I can still name all of them off the top of my head
I was told I'm too picky and that’s why I'm still single
Cause people like me, right?
Nah, see people don't
I get a once in a lifetime chance to find people that truly like me without ulterior motives
And then I fuck it up with trust issues behind jailed insecurities
The people I like wind up showing their true colors like black and blue on my skin
The people I like wind up showing their flaws like fresh cuts on my body
The people I like wind up saying things I hate like the voices in my head bickering
The person I like doesn't date “fat bitches”
My best friend won't date “bitches like me”
The person I like keeps saying “bitches” like it lessens the blow of the bullets to my body type
My best friend gives compliments like I'm stupid enough to think he isn't lying or fucking with me
The person I like couldn’t really give two fucks about me
My best friend says “you’re my friend” almost disdainfully
So see?
There’s my problem with liking people
I like the lowkey judgemental, “I can’t stand this, but I guess with you it’s fine” people
The withdrawn people
And I believe that’s where I waste my time: people
A hidden extrovert
With everything to lose inside a 5’10”, 260 lbs treasure chest
Covered in barbed wire and lemon juice dipped razor blades
Says “I love you” like it’s points added to a game
Compliments me like its fun to watch me squirm
Yes, I know he doesn't mean it
And that’s the problem
‘Cause I like him
You know the people I like