Pariah To Joy
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I want to scream,
I want to cry,
I only want to dream,
Of a better life.
But there's no place to go,
Because everywhere they watch.
They know.
And I can't help but feel awful inside.
Will this ever heal,
This wound inside?
I can't feel;
It came so fast.
The numbness and dead;
They kill my joy.
It's a riverbed,
Of tears that blind my mind.
A smoke screen of haze,
I wander aimlessly.
I'm in a maze,
And I can't get out!
A pariah in a crowd;
An outcast in a land.
I dared not say aloud,
What I thought inside.
The hunger for a friend,
It ate me alive!
I starved to end,
My hopeless misery.
But I found something new:
If I sought the corners,
I became more blue.
And I didn't want that.
But if I creeped to the center,
I discovered the glory,
Of a love epicenter;
I was so joyful!
I finally had found it:
The love that I saught!
I needed to commit,
The rest of my life,
To the mission of God,
I'd forgotten existed.