The struggle is intolerable

pain is inevitable

but yet i accept it

all of it

because I know thats the only thing I can feel

I've got walls around my heart of steel

Some people say put a condom on your heart and fuck your feelings

but most people dont know what im dealing with

music sometimes helps

but even music cant hide my heart crushing yelps

my yelps for this heart crushing pain to leave

but i wanna leave

for good and never look back

strengthen the things that i lack

I dont know where im going in life

I hope i end up as a happy wife

if not then its a life wasted and lost

but what does all of this cost?

my integrity, my faith, my better judgement?

I am slowly losing my sanity

and its barely keeping up with me

all i do is cry in the night

i cry from the sudden fright

i dream of purple, green, and deep blue

i really dont know if there is anything that i can do

Do i stay and get hurt?

stay with the people who drag me through the dirt?

I'd rather just go and close myself off from the world.....