I did not want to speak words

Or share my thoughts

I hated the world

I hated it all

I hated you

And I hated him

And I hated me

Especially me

My chest was filled

With conversations unspoken

My heart was dead

But my body kept moving

Then one day I broke

Over a slate of white

I leaked black ink

And words bled out of my mind

That putrid ick

didn't hang over my eyes

And then just as suddenly

I was alive