I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OBSESSIVE 

OVER SOMETHING I NEVER HAD LIKE A FAMILY

 AND EVENTUALLY SOMEONE TO CALL MY DAD

 

NOT HAVING A MOTHER EITHER WAS HARD ENOUGH IT WAS SAD 

MUST I REFLECT AND REMINISCE ON THE MEMORIES I NEVER HAD 

 

STILL WANTING FOR A CHILDHOOD AND A TIME MACHINE TO TAKE ME BACK 

 

BACK TO WHEN THE TRAUMA.. NEVER LATCHED 

ONTO MY BODY.. SOUL COLLAPSED  

 

THIS IS THE STAGE WHERE ANXIETY ATTACKS SLOWING CREEPING DOWN MY BACK 

 

STARING ME IN ALL BLACK

 THIS IS WHERE

 I FEEL ENTRAPPED 

 

MUST I SAY MORE BECAUSE REALLY MORE IS LESS 

THE LESSER I SAY IT DECREASES THE MESS  

 

IF I SAY MORE YOU MUST BE READY TO ENDURE

 

THE PHYSICAL PAIN AND TO BE MENTALLY SCORNED 

DEEP INSIDE MY TISSUE UNDERNEATH MY SKIN TO ABSOLUTELY FEEL 

VICARIOUSLY WHERE I BEEN   

 

IM INTERNALLY BLEEDING FROM THE SCARS YOUR NOT SEEEING 

 

THOSE MONSTERS AND DEMONS NOBODY BELIEVES IN 

THEY WALK AMONGST US TRULY DECIEVING

 

OH WHY MUST I BE SO OBSESSVIE WITH THINGS I NEVER HAD 

OR AM I JUST OBSESSED WITH MY PERCEPTIONS ON MY PAST

 

Missy Fulmer