Not Finished Yet
Every time a candle burns
I think of a field in the middle of June
Campfires in the hills of Pennsylvania
Where we watched the glow of a waning moon
And I remember the days we laughed
And I remember the days we fought
And I remember the mountains and the rivers
And all the fireflies we caught
But those days are gone now
Dried up with the morning dew
And the rainbows and sunsets
we used to watch
Have watched us fading too
And I am an empty, hollow shell
where the bones were left to dry
And as my candle flickers on the shelf
I think I’d rather die
You see depression is a salesman
And he sells his twisted lies
To convince you as you fall asleep
That they’d be happier if you died
And it’s ok to live for others
But try to live for you
Because if you lose the ones you love
It’s what you’ll have to do.
So I try to read this poem
on my darkest days and nights
To remind myself it’s not too late
To turn back on the lights
I have books to read and songs to sing
And poems left to name
I have new blue jeans and mint ice cream
And I haven’t beat that game
And if I die I won’t reach twenty-five
To make that SpongeBob joke
And I won’t get to see cypress trees
Or pick wild artichokes
So I guess I can live a few more years
And I’ll find new reasons then
I’ll watch my candle burn away
And recall the days of when
And perhaps this poem will change someday
Or perhaps it’s self aware
But I cannot see the future yet
I just hope that you’ll be there.