the night she died
A spinning head and weak knees
he only wanted the pain to cece
one pill two drinks maybe three
drown in immobility
weepy eyes from withdrawals
never tried to take a pause
calused thumbs from broken flames
missing how he said my name
chapped lips open close to mine
night seems meaningless in time
hands across my virgin waist
have till death, no time to waste
whispers in his frozen ear
words I know he wants to hear
smiles as I blow a cloud
toxic, why am I so proud?
Skin on skin seems warmest of all
belts come off and jackets fall
he only wanted to numb the pain
Time and time and time again