cheers to the year
that i lost friends, i
lost connections, i
to 2016, a year that
has been so utterly
malignant to my soul,
it has made my chest numb.
to the year that best friends
became best memories and
insecurities ate away at the
strings holding me together.
and when blurry recollections
becamse a clear reality.
of pure agony and disappoinment
and my birthday was not a year
more of life but a year
closer to death.
hooray to the year i finally
grasped onto the thought that i
was not dreaming about your skin
on mine, i was living the nightmare
of you taking my innocence.
365 days of a scale showing the same number
but my chest feeling heavier because
who knew the feeling of emptiness could be
somehow, i spent 52 weeks with back pain
attemtping to carry such a low self esteem
upon my small shoulders.
8,760 hours of my blue thread becoming
darker shades and my loved ones
cutting me off because they all preffered
to be stitched with the sun instead of
the night sky.