Beginning of a new start.
Dated a dude calling me sweetheart
Of course, I fell for his trap
Put up with one year of his crap
Attitudes and fights each and everyday
My heart turned cold and grey
But because I was a sweet girl, I was down for him.
Get in trouble with him
Gave him sex 24/7 and he took it like it was funny to him.
Called him king and put a crown on him
Gave ALL my hard working money to him
Even broke a couple of limbs for him
But of course he didn't care
Didn't even want to share
Asking me for money here and there
Wonder why I got trust issues
Cried so hard everyday, I spent 20 dollars worth of box tissues.
At the age of 20, he lived with his brothers and mama.
Yea, I had to deal with all the drama.
They blame me for stuff, called me a using all his money chick.
But that wasn't it.
His mam had a mouth and it was slick.
O, the things I had to deal with.
Him being my first, he took my mind, soul, and most diffidently my body.
I really thought I was somebody.
I realize I was a used beautiful lady, that was kept in his trapped, maybe.
Still don't know how it feels to be treated
He used all my money and cheated
I'm still overheated, feels like I have a giant hole in my heart.
Nobody will ever fix the broke pieces.
I always feel like I get weak and fall apart
But every lady needs that beginning of a new start.