i never thougth i'd be this depressed,

wondering when the lights gonna fade.

I never thought the pain would get worse,

scaring, and lining my arms from blades.

I never thought hurting could feel so good

when you just want to cry so badly.

I never thought the choices i made

could make a mom be so sad.

I never thought i'd crave the pain,

the heat of the blood as it flows.

I never thought i could be so quiet,

making no noise like a ghost,

no sound. 

I never thought it would be me...