My heart feels so heavy, and I could say I don't know why, but there are a million reasons. I could say I'm fine, that everything will be okay. But the truth is, that's a bunch of bullshit. "I'm fine" is a lie. It's always a lie. You know it, I know it. So lets drop all the stories we tell ourselves, that we tell others to make everything ok. Let's be real for just a moment. I am angry, I am sad, I am confused. And you know what, it may just be some temporary feeling or may even be this young adult angst thing, "I'm still trying to find myself" Whatever. It still hurts. I can still feel the ache in my bones. Because you see, my heart is a trapped butterfly fluttering beneath my caged chest, begging me to set it free. And It takes everything in me not to rip through my flesh and watch as it flies into the open sky. I try my best to keep the positive vibe going, to be true to my Buddha heart. To laugh with the sun and dance with the wind, but sometimes I need to feel what is truly inside of me and have a good cry. I love this life, I do. But there are times when all I need is a hug or a kind word from someone, anyone I don't care... To keep me going. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel everything so deeply, and I can't control that. Every word, every prayer, and every thought shoots through me faster and harder than you could possibly imagine. I even cry for the moon because our hearts are stranded here beneath it, and goddamn it we just left it there.. Can you imagine the loneliness of being so beautiful but no one admires you, just taking your light for granted?
Be kind, always.
Be true, always.
Admire the light in others... Always.
And if you can, help someone.
Namaste.