My Will To Live
I am of the utmost importance
Without me
There is no me
There is no swirling cotton candy colored galaxies
No childrens laugh on the playground
No 15-year-old girl sitting in a geography class
Writing an essay with shaky fingers and her hood up
I tell myself
That I withhold these beautiful things
If I die the entire universe
Gets sucked into its own black hole
Fading
To darkness
A mind that is capable of wonderful and sinister things
Hands that are capable of shaking continuously for hours
Something I couldn't live without
My Self
A 15 year old girl that is going to go somewhere in life
A 15 year old girl with ink flooded papers
And an ink flooded head
Despite all the darkness in my head
I couldn’t live without my self
Whether Insanity has captured me tight within its grasp
Or not
Whether it’s depression and I think i’ve lost all hope
I know that everything heals with time
And I tell my brain that I am me
And that's the best thing I can be
I don’t need any iPhone or soul mate
To control my life
I tip my hat
To people like me
That put themselves first
To people like me
Who are typing an essay
With shaky hands
And ink stained fingers
Searching far and wide for something to grab to
In their ink flooded mind