My daddy loves me.

Says my 2 year old self.

My daddy is coming back.

Says my 10 year old self.

My daddy abandoned me.

Says my 15 year old self.

I never thought he would.

But he did.

I loved my daddy.

I thought he would return.

Now, 

I know he's never coming back.

I know he doesn't love me.

I know he doesn't care.

He would rather take a hit than to take me in his arms and tell me

everything will be allright.

Because that's how he is.

He's not the type to care.

All he thinks about is himself.

Now on my 16th birthday, 

he is trying to take it all back.

Trying to make up for it.

But I won't allow it. 

He has hurt me too much.

I will NEVER forgive him.