My Smile

Everyone around me was always so happy.

My smile was fake

They say to smile through the hard times

I found it hard 

Growing up hearing gun shots

Never knowing if it was my last day on Earth

Most people I knew either died or went to jail

Is it me?

I never hurt nobody so why am I the one with the hard times

I often hurt

But my mom raised a man

Men dont show defeat so I smile in public

Even if I cry behind closed doors