For my MOTHER (Part 3)
Lets get a few things straight.
1. I am not okay.
and
2. I'm not the same person who left the house a few months ago.
3. There are so many secrets that I'm keeping.
but
4. The alcohol numbs the pain.
5. My sexuality is none of your concern.
and
6. It should not feel wrong on my skin.
but
7. It does and that's your fault.
8. Things are slowly getting better.
and
9. You can't take any of the credit.
because
10. You're never there when I need you.
and
11. I don't really want you here anyways.
but
12. I kind of wish that weren't true.
because
13. I want to be able to tell you things.
because
14. You are my mother
but
15. You don't act like it.
16. I am better because of you.
wait
17. I am better in spite of you.
because
18. I don't want to end up like you.
19. I'm sitting here alone.
but
20. I'm not really alone.
because
21. I have people who are nothing like you.
and
22. I am happy.