I just want to communicate the questions that run through my mind

About the love that I want, the lust that I have, and the love that is blind

Why is it that the guys that I want don’t want me and the guys that want me I don’t want?

Why is it that the bad girl finally wants a gentlemen and the good girl chases after the bad boy?

Why isn’t the love, the attraction, the feelings ever mutual?

I’m constantly on this quest to find this close to perfect love

I can’t find it

So for now I’m going to imagine the guy of my dreams

He is tall, dark and handsome, built with the dopest tattoos a girl has ever seen

Is this real love or just lust, only time can tell

But I’m not worried about the future, I’m worried about the here and the now

Every time he touches me my heart makes a quicker beat

Boom boom. Boom boom. Beating so hard I can feel it out of my chest

And then he did it, he kissed me and my heart melted through my ribs

I want this feeling to last forever

Make it last

Stop in the name of love!

I said I was going to imagine the perfect guy but I still have to deal with reality

With the, I don’t want to commit, the time isn’t right, and the I have to keep my options open mentality

Then there is no reason why I should have given you a year of my life, of my time cause baby my time is precious

The intimate encounters are out of this world but I need more

How do we define our relationship anyway, are we together, are we not, are there just benefits to this?

I don’t want to be lost, I don’t want to be confused anymore

Show me something to let me know that this is real

Tell me it’s real

Because if not then I’m leaving you to search for and imagine a love that is

By: Chelsea Milsap