My First Poem for "No."

There are minimal downsides to being a Poet,

But one of the few is that it's difficult to simultaneously be One

As well as the girl you want me to be.


It's difficult becuase we'll be in English class,

Analyzing the intricacies of Shakespeare's Hamlet,

But you're stuck on Act 3, Scene 2, Line 11, 

In which Hamlet says to Ophelia, "Nothing,"

And nothing is zero and zero looks like a vagina so obviously Hamlet is calling Ophelia a vagina hahaha.

This is why it's difficult


It's difficult because we'll be laying on my rooftop at twighlight,

Staring at the stars and their outlines fading into view,

And I'll want to ask you what you think lies behind those clouds,

But you want to hear about what lies beneath my clothes.


It's difficult for me because I want to be

Like Edgar Allen Poe,

Not just one of your Edgar Allen Hoes.


It's difficult for me because there are a million enchanting words

I could use to describe how 

The sunlight illuminates the crimson on your cheeks

And how you swept me off my feet

And how my heart beats so fast I can barely think--

But there are very few enchanting ways to say, "No."


I always try to look for the beauty in words

Because that's the way I want my Poetry to be heard,

But there is no way I can relate allegories and spin metaphors

To tell you, 

"Please, get your hands off me."


That night I coudn't tell you 

To get your tongue out of my throat,

As it was blocking all the similes and alliterations 

Denying you consent.


Afterwards, when I sat curled up

In the passenger seat of your car,

You put my seat belt on for me (how ironic)

Because I was too busy trying to drown out everything, 

Eyes closed, trembling between beating waves of nausea.

The note you scribbled in my phone reading,

"Don't worry. Text me when you wake up.

Hope you're okay in the morning,"

Was anything but a sonnet.


The days following, I felt as though

My body belonged to a foreign entity,

As if it had been swapped in my sleep 

For another--a synonym of what I used to know.

I was trapped in a paradox of 

The same unfamiliar skin, bone, and muscle

That had housed me my entire life.


The stanza that I need to throw out, however,

Includes the refrain I keep 

Repeating and repeating, over and over

In my mind:

That it's MY FAULT...I knew what I was walking into-

That it's MY FAULT...I took the first drink-

That it's MY FAULT...I still haven't refused you.


But in all honesty,

I can never completely blame you,

I can never completely hate you,

And I can never completely love you again.


Contending two antitheses, my mind and tongue

Are fighting an internal conflict on the battlefield of you,

And as to what I'll say next I have no clue.

But I know I'm a poet, and what I can do

Is write, though it may not be in the form of iambic pentameter,

My first Poem for "No."

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Hello friends!

This was my attempt to get something off my chest that's been weighing me down for quite sometime. If anything of this nature ever happens to you (and I pray to God it doesn't), please don't hesitate to call 9-1-1, the National Sexual Assault Telephone Hotline, your university's Sexual Assault Hotline, or a counselor. 

Hope you enjoy!


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