Much To Be Lost In A Year
It seems like just a day,
and I'm still wishing the pain away.
Still comprehending what I've lost,
still struggling with the cost.
An angel has been gained,
I still fight through the pain.
I remember my mom crying,
I remember the vet trying,
He couldn't find the vein,
I prayed that AJ wasn't in pain.
Soon his eyes that pleaded for the pain to stop,
Would be at peace forever, I can still feel my heart drop.
I just wanted it to end,
I'm so sorry, to my dear friend.
He looked so scared,
there was no way I could have been prepared.
He was surrounded my family
but it still ended terribly.
He was just supposed to have some teeth removed,
but they found cancer, quickly we were shooed
out of the house to hear the news, "Just to be clear,
we don't know how long this has been here."
"How long will he last?"
We all thought about the past.
He's been a dear friend for so many years,
I can already picture the cans from the beers
that my father will drink to cope with the pain.
Our house seems so empty, now so plain.
It has been six weeks, and I still hear my mom cry,
I know I can't help, so all I do is sigh.
This year I'll try to let go,
of the pain that pulls me down so low.