_misUnderstood Demeanor_ 🐾

If you ever get invited to my wedding with Death,
just know that I'm the one who would have tied the knot... suicide.
The dress code should be coded.. from suit to tie
I ordered myself a life with loose ends that even I don't suit to tie.
Life has me at it's edges, ageing and praying that I don't lose hope
Praying that I at least lose weight than lose myself.
I'm usually in my mind with a basket in hand, trying to pick myself up.. gathering my bits and pieces.
The antagonist in me hates it when my heart beats and it pisses him off..
to see me live he wants to see me leave
So if I ever talk about suicide, he's the one I want to k!ll .
I've been taking boxing classes lately, trying hard to fight depression and anxiety.
My life is a movie hence the mental health episodes..
I have a mental health series I uploaded it on MeTube it has zero views.
Point is... there's no point for pointless people who really don't get the point of what I live for..so my life is mostly an "i" land...I learnt
life,studied how people think and I graduated at the University of Minding My Own Business.
Not the business of people selling me lies and them buying my trust.
I am a sinner ,take me to the sinner_gogue , the sum of my friends made me realize that some of my friends are the crew behind the sins .
I've been praying hard for detachment at a time where my varsity peers are praying for attachment...
Ndinoziva kusasimba kwangu kumwe kukurirwa kunobva pakusasimba kwangu.
So I turn my face to the mountains where my help comes from..the only way I can stand is through kneeling.
I tell it all to God because in the eyes of the people I have a demeanor that noone understands except God..a misUnderstood Demeanor

*Written and performed by Am T_Know🇿🇼*