Lyrically Searching My Heart
These lyrics are the words of my heart
everything that I've hidden that's tearing me apart
The lack of emotions I never feel
being able to tell if what is here is real
I hate the way nothing good ever stays
somehow people always find a reason to walk away
I've never been sure whether or not I actually fit in
or if the mere mention of my name can make somebody grin
I don't know whether or not my feelings can make you stay
or even if everything is going to be okay
I never know if what I've said is ever too much
the shortness of conversation makes it seem like it's never enough
The warm feeling you get when hands touch
and the great depth of giving your love
For someone to look at you the way they do their mother
and hold you in there arms like you would a sister or a brother
The times when you're sad for reasons you can't explain
and the mere happiness I feel when you speak my name
My meaning behind the poem will remain unclear
depending if this is all you want to hear
Regardless of what I may do,
my heart will continue to care
but most of all these are the things that I want to say to you
even though I'm not sure they are all entirely true