Love Denied

You were supposed to be

The one who would love me

and take care of my heart.

 

Love denied once again.

 

I still feel the pain, hurt, and suffering

From past and present relationships.

Where time and time and time again

I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul.

 

Only to feel the cold steel dagger

From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade

Laced with poison dreams and romance

That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.

 

Loved denied once again.

 

I keep telling myself…

This one is different. This one is special.

Yes…This one will return my love.

Finally, I’ll have what I’ve longed for.

 

Hear words of love,

Feel promises of sweet caresses and gentle touches.

No more lonely nights of holding my pillow,

Crying myself to sleep and dreaming

For someone to return my love.

 

But in the darkness like the Titanic

With all its riches and dreams yet to come.

I was struck by that fatal blow…

 

Your love for me has died you confess

And all that you once felt for me

Was never as strong as you led me to believe.

 

How dare you put me through this!

How dare you play with my heart!

How dare you let me endure

The pain, the hurt, the shock, and the emotional drainage

From a relationship that showed the promises of things to be!

Even with the birth of love but those promises never transpired!

 

After years of lies and false love,

Even my family tried to warn me from the start.

How could I have been so blind

To the warning signs that were ever so present?

 

I kept my promise to be by your side.

Nights filled with romance, tender touches,

Hot baths and massages to take you away

From the stress of this world.

 

That was until the day

You no longer desired my touch.

 

I gave my all to make it work.

I gave my heart, my soul, my love.

But in the end, this still wasn’t enough.

 

What I yearned and prayed for went unfulfilled.

The demon I thought I had finally vanquished

Resurface with a vengeance after all these years!

 

Unearthing the memories from the past.

Pain, hurt, suffering

And even the day when Heaven cried!

 

Time and time and time again

I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul.

 

Only to feel the cold steel dagger

From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade

Laced with poison dreams and romance

That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.

 

Love denied once again.

 

Now, I could have left at any time.

Instead, I tried to work it out and make it better.

But one can only do that for so long.

 

For the sake of my heart and peace of mind…

The time has come when I just

Have to turn and walk away.

 

Even though you promised me you would change.

Instead, it’s the same old song

Over and over and over again.

 

Only to feel the cold steel dagger

From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade

Laced with poison dreams and romance

That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.

 

Love denied once again.

 

I am tired of being lonely and feeling this way.

My eyes are finally opened.

I know there is someone out there that will love me

And appreciate all I have to give.

 

I pray to you, Lord

For strength, guidance.

And that one great love you have for me.

 

This is the life my heart has lived.

Heartbreaks, isolation, starvation,

And yes, an overabundance of love

With no one to pour upon.

 

This is my testimony.

Don’t let it be yours where you are saying:

 

Time and time and time again

I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul.

 

Only to feel the cold steel dagger

From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade

Laced with poison dreams and romance

That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.

 

Watch out for the sting…

 

Love denied.

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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