Lost Now
Pointing is bad, my mother would tell me
Respect everyone for who they are
To be big, tall, skinny, or gay
Don't let anyone get in your way
I listened and followed her every word
But when the finger was at me, my visioned blurred
Too fat, too quiet, too not big chest
Said the girl with mighty big breast
They laughed and poked at my weak zone
I covered my ears and prayed
Stepping on the scale to see how much I weighed
My shoulders dropped, I couldnt bear the sight no more
What's gotten into you, my mother asked
Nothing, I said, I am nothing to adore,
Age 16, I diet and run
I drop the fat, though this isnt fun
I want to impress, I want to be done
Eyes on me, as they oh and aw, they finally see me
This isnt what my mother taught me
To change for others and hate myself
But it can't be helped
I am already sucked into society
My waist snatched and ego high
My mother waves not to me, but to my heart goodbye.