So I woke up one day to something that made a wreck
Finding out he's gone has been a great shock
Idk what to do Idk what to say
Should I go after him or just get used to stay
After a while of thinking I found myself outside
Walking around his house lookin so mad
I already miss him and feel so alone
I'll always regret that night we had alone
When you started to tremble and act so stressed
I was listening to music wasn't even focused
Then finally you pulled me and said that you want this
You want me you want us you really wanna try this
I was feelin so speechless I didn't know what to say
Until you had enough of me and decided to not stay
I tried to run after you to explain my feeling
But it was too late and you were already leaving
I had a bad feeling but didn't think about it
And next time I saw you, you came to me carrying it
That smile that energy and everything along it
You said it was fine and I didn't need to say it
So I just kept quiet and tried to make you feel it
I thought it was over that it didn't matter
But boy was I wrong and didn't even know it
The news of your death was like a havoc
One that wrecked my life and made me go lunatic
I went to the next place where I felt safe
Doesn't compare to you but feel the peace it gave
I ordered some jen and started to drink
One after another I started to feel blank
Then I remembered I had that pill
One that you gave me when we wanted to chill
So I swallow that one and keep on drinking
While dancing to that song you liked playing
The one that played on our first meet up
When we were happy and always feelin hyped up
Those were the days I needed to pause
Next thing I hear is an applause
Someone tryin to wake me up and calling 911
I barely see anything I hear the screaming of someone
Then I'm on a hospital bed hoping that I'd die
Hoping that I'd see you just to say goodbye