Losing You
I'm consumed with darkness
I don't ever leave my house
It's like I'm trapped in a nightmare
And there's no way out
I'm putting up a front
But nothing seems to please me
Everyone says I'm so strong
But none of this is easy
I wish I could drink away my sorrows
But I'm too young to be a drunk
Wish I could drop out of school
But I'm too prideful to be a flunk
Ari's just a baby
I know i gotta be her rock
None of this was supposed to happen
And I'm still in utter shock
I'm pushing people away
That's always been how I cope
Everyone says it'll get easier
Just keep holding onto hope
I'm only eighteen
Why have I been through so much pain?
There's so much hurt in my body
And I feel the anger throughout my veins
Sometimes I wish I was dead
I'd much rather be with you
Cause I'm running out of strength
And this seems so overdue
I thought I was over this
I thought that I had changed
But for every problem I solve
I get another in exchange