I tried to be hopeful

I looked to the bright side but what do you do when the light looks right back at you with disgust?

I have to keep going I shouldn't give up but wait---

Where did everybody go?

I have to drive these demons out of my soul but the air grew cold because no one is here to warm me.

I didn't recieve a warning when my mind melted away and my sanity dropped to the floor and shattered like glass.

They tell me to let go of the past but how am I supposed to do that when its the only thing I have?

Am I losing it?

I'd claw at my face and rip off my skin to try and form a new me and the thought was soothing for a moment until I realized I didn't have a needle and thread to sew myself back together and I cried as I laid in pieces in my bed.

I wake up and things are still not okay so I make up a better world in my head.

I'm not happy here.

It's not better to be alone, it's better when someone else can confirm that I'm not crazy when the people around me keep trying to change me.

I shaved my head and tried to etch a prayer into my skull but how will it be heard if the knife is dull?

I lived my life day by day and for a while it was okay but then the days got too long so I had to sing a different song to take my mind off of it.

So now I live hour by hour but somehow I didn't notice that my notes had gone sour.

I'm losing my voice.