long deep cuts and small superficial scratches

i would lie if anyone noticed 

but they never do 

not anymore at least

only one person noticed once 

"it was the new kitten my parents got" i lied 

he pulled up his sleeves and said "my parents got a new kitten too"

i gasped as i saw his cuts 

long deep cuts and small superficial scratches 

puffy and red and cracking from exposure

he said he understood and that we could stand by each other 

i stayed by his side but things didn't last long

he took his own life and left me on my own 

i tried so hard to join him 

but every time i tried all i got was

long deep cuts and superficial scratches 

i miss him every day 

and cry every night 

but i guess i should let go 

and move on 

but instead i just keep making my 

stupid and numerous 

long deep cuts and superficial scratches