I try to smile

And show kindness

To those who may need it

But sometimes I wish

They could see behind the curtain

The veil that I have on

It's there to keep people from seeing

The monster hidden inside of me

I contain it as long as I can

But break during the night

At night I know who I truly am

A monster

How can I be liked?

I lash out on anyone who tries

To know me and be a friend

No one will ever see inside

The pain that I hide

Each and every night

I wish to be perfect

And live up to the expectations

But they drag me down

And wisper to me saying

"You're never gonna be like them"

"You're never gonna please them"

"You're worthless"

"No one wants you"

I try to block out the words

The thoughts keep finding their way back in

I struggle to ignore them

To put them in their box

I can hide them their for the day

but at night

They come out to say

Those things that make me feel

Less that what I really am