Little Nicole
16 years old on the street
Has a baby girl
From being a freak in the sheets
Wasn't unprotected
But, the condom broke
2 weeks later it was positive
So she told her folk
Her mom was disappointed
But, her step-dad was not
It was him that put her in that perfect position
Told her,
You can never trust a soul in this world
Whispered in her ear, I hope you have my baby girl
Cause her momma couldnt have any more children
And she was dyin from the disease
And as the days past by she got weaker
But, as her days got shorter, her man still beat her
Dang,
Now her daughter livin with a life inside her belly
Got nothing to do but sit around and watch the telly
Watchin her mom crawl back to this man
Tellin her she'll never understand
"Cause if I don't, who gon pay for my medicine"
Wow
Everyday he come home, it's the same story
Got drunk
Now I gotta sit back and watch the blood and gory
Look at you momma, you don't need no more meds
He's beating you everyday, you might as well be dead
And you fail to realize he put me in his bed
And you was disappointed
But, it's cause of him that i shed
These tears on my pillow
They been there for some weeks
I just wanna leave and never come back
And by leave, I mean this world
Them suicidal thoughts comin back
Thinkin bout when he laid me on my back
Brushed my hair back and smiled in my face
He had a smile on his face
And I tried to fight back
But, I came home a waste
Ahh man,
I feel like all this is my fault
If only I woulda never took a sip of that alcohol
It's killin me inside
Feels like I've been shedding tears for years
Look at my momma everyday and gotta face my fears
Cause my momma gon be left alone
With this man that beat her in her own home
Is it selfish for me wanting to die
I contemplate is it worth it
Cause I don't like to cry
Wake up every mornin
Havin breakfast at the table
This is reality
But, I wish it was a fable
And I wish I never listened to Biggie Smalls
Called up 9-1-1
Told them my story on the phone call
After I was done I felt even worse
It's like there's no escaping this curse
When they arrest this man
Who gon pay the bills
And who gon pay for my mothers medical refills
I wish I could just get scooped in the hearse
It was a curse since birth
Little Nicole,
Will never have worth
Picked up the pistol
Stared at my mom's eyes
And I could see the crystal
The tears that she had in her dyin bed
I can't let her stare at me after I'm dead
Pull the trigger on her first
Fell on my knees
Bang Bang
We both got a disease
We both dyin together
You said you'll never leave me
Now we up in heaven together
A mother,
A daughter
A grand-daughter
Forever