Sometimes I feel like the little girl inside of me is screaming
Screaming because she’s hurting & doesn’t know how to communicate why or how she’s hurting
Screaming because she wants attention
Screaming just because
Screaming because she thinks she knows what to do but doesn’t
Screaming because God isn’t physically in front of her
The little girl inside of me is still there because she has not been honest with herself
Honest about her pain
Honest about her fear
Honest about her triumphs
That little girl has become good at masking her true intentions
That little girl has become good at hiding her feelings so good that she eventually believes she’s happy but her constant breakdowns prove that she isn’t
That little girl just wants love & validation but she constantly lies to herself about her desires because she’s afraid that no one will be able to give her that
Yes, she knows God
Yes, she loves him
But what she wants is a physical touch
Something that’ll remind her that she’s safe & can be vulnerable
Maybe she feels this way because her father was never loving or showed love how she wanted
Maybe she feels this way because her mom was trying to fix a broken marriage
Who knows?
This little girl just wants to be free.
Free from any pain, hurt & negative emotions but that freedom comes when the spirit is free
So until then the little girl may just have to continue screaming