I gave myself lines

Because I didn't know

I gave myself lines

Because I needed pain

Something other than the

Pain in my head

In my heart

I gave myself lines

Because it seemed only fair

I gave myself lines

Because no one told me

How addicting that pain would be

Pain that coursed through me

With every memory that surfaced

I gave myself lines

Because I hated my body

Because I hated myself

Now those lines mock me

Turning dark red

As they imprint themselves

And remind me of pain

That I try so hard to forget