Life in a letter
For Sasha,
Keeping secrets can kill you
Will kill you
But not me
Sasha held all of mine
Watched over by people who grow
Fearful when someone would shout
What would you do next?
Take a box cutter
But not for the box, that’d be silly
Cut open your wrists
Watching the red river
Flow freely from your body
Or maybe perch on a window
Looking lovingly down below
It’s only the third floor
Worst case scenario, broken leg or arm
No need to worry
So you stay
You wonder how those smiles,
How the protection,
The walking on eggshells
Is supposed to help you
But it doesn’t
Those smiles didn’t save you
from the current or the drugs
If anything, they got wiped away too
Along with you
She’s curled around your heart
like a fist protesting death
and her voice is all you hear
Telling you to fight
When your world comes crashing down
-Benny