Life Exists Without You
The ruler of universal pain and pleasure, you are
I whimper with dread because you'd never understand
I fear mediocrity of this poem
But it must be said, in order for me to do
But life exists without you
I've seen what could be before I met you
The unmeeting of you will remain faded
Tattered, torn, and unrealistic is how I am
Acceptance from you? I wouldn't dare
It wouldn't behoove thee who pushed for a better you
To understand where I come from when I request care
Struck down with rejection, heart out of shape
Suffering blockages, backups, setups for downfalls
I am obese with the past
I run in hopes of losing all backage
Still, my heart holds heavier than it ever was
Request for surgery would only deepen the wound
Bleed me dry of sanity and strength
Pills?
No
They'd only relay the side effects of what's to come when night falls
And no one can hear you
The screams, shallowed out like a wave pool
The moon cries to me
I look to it as if it were the enemy that slaughtered my humanity
I resent night fall
By morning the moon still follows my path
The bed in which misery resides calls to me
It's ironic how that's the first place I run when I return
It's a contradiction to run and return
But that's what I do
In hopes of realizing that there's life
Without
You