Letting Go
I don't remember much, but I don't know whether that is good or bad.
Sometimes on a rainy day, my mind wanders to that year and wonder where it all went.
I can remember my friends and how happy they made me feel, but the events that took place
with someone cannot be retrieved from my subconscious. Now, if you are reading this, my friend,
I just wanted to say thank you, even though our friendship right now is at a declivity.
But for that individual, there is a reason why I forgot, why I forget.
I have wanted to know for some time now, but you shut me out. So, now I have my answer as to
how you feel about me. So, now I don't even bother. People have asked about us, but I don't know
how to respond and just hope that the subject is changed. If you read this, I hope that we could forget
about it and just leave it all in the past. You take too much time out of my life, making me wonder
what really happened that year. People tell me what they know, but that is not all the information.
So, starting today I am letting you go. Starting today, I look to the future and not the past for answers.
Instead of "what could have been," I look to new beginnings. So, if you're reading this, I guess this is my
way of saying goodbye and letting you and the past out of my life. Letting go all the uncertainty you pose in
my life and a chance to start anew.