He turned up the radio and turned off the lights.

 

 

At that moment I'm pretty sure I was staying the night.

 

 

I could see the sun go down from the window next to his bed. 

 

 

One hand on my left leg , the other caressing my head...

 

 

He moved in slowly, soon enough his lips met mine.

 

 

On the night table sat two big glasses, and an empty bottle of wine.

 

 

He rolled over, put his hands on my waist and placed me over his hips.

 

 

I leaned in towards his face, and nipped at his lips.

 

 

Put his hand behind my neck and his kissed my cheek.

 

 

Moved his way down to my collar bone, i could feel my body grow weak.

 

 

He raised my arms up as he lifted my shirt, 

 

 

Bit my neck softly so it wouldnt hurt.

 

 

Began to kiss me, being playful with his tounge.

 

 

Put his phone on silent the moment it rung. 

 

 

He rolled me over once more , as he kissed along my side.

 

 

I knew what would happen next, I have no more chances to decide.

 

 

He took off his top, and started to unbuckle his belt.

 

 

Rubbed against me as we kissed, I swear it was the biggest I ever felt.

 

 

Kissed along my waist as he put down my pants,

 

 

Sat up and whisped, " I can't".

 

 

He looked at me and said,"don't worry baby, I'll be gentile" 

 

 

Pressed himself up against me, and whispered "I promise I will."

 

 

I sighed as he slowly pushed me back to lay down.

 

 

Closed my eyes and pretended no one was around.

 

 

It wasnt long till every peice of clothing was gone.

 

 

I don't know if he noticed but at this point I was completely withdrawn.

 

 

He used his fingers for assistance as he slipped it in.

 

 

The thoughts that ran through my mind, where do I begin?

 

 

Sweating through the sheets, as he went in and out.

 

 

I hardly knew his name let alone what he was about. 

 

 

Quiet moans as he went a little deeper.

 

 

I could feel my knees, they were getting weaker.

 

 

Took it out quickly and put it near my face...

 

 

Held on to it, just it case.

 

 

It slipped it in my mouth, and now he was done.

 

 

He pointed out the door and said, " Bathroom's there hun."

 

 

I quickly walked toward it, and spit it all in the sink.

 

 

I didnt know how to feel, i didnt know how to think.

 

 

Went back into the bed room, and layed on his chest.

 

 

He kissed my forehead, and told me to get some rest.

 

 

Early morning I got up and got ready.

 

 

He woke and in a sleepy voice he said, " you're leaving already?"

 

 

I told him I had to go, and we'll talk when ever.

 

 

Which really meant... Never. 

 

 

Here I go again , Walk of Shame.

 

 

I don't know why I do it, what really do I gain?

 

 

A lonely night yet again, occupied by some other guy?

 

 

Just so I don't stay up to think, just so I don't cry? 

 

 

What happen to self control, and self respect?

 

 

Your body is your temple, and its something you should protect?

 

 

Questions I can barely answer anymore.

 

 

I guess you can say what I've become is a 'whore'.

 

 

Slut? Maybe even skank...

 

 

I walked down the street, as i let my mind go blank.

 

 

Not to feel, and just be numb

 

 

I guess this is as far as I've come.

 

 

A lesser version of myself.