Tell me why, 
I'm losing my mind, 
and everything in my world, 
as i metabolize, 
on good times, 
am i the only girl, 
who dreams a fairytale, 
lives in hell, 
fantasies disappear, 
people i love, 
were so near, 
escapped from my heart, 
took my soul, 
drenched in flames, 
coroson so cold, 
empty as well, 
all the people left, 
from my chest, 
this pain continues to fold, 
overlap, 
twist and tie, 
chained tight, 
bottled up, 
witness my fright, 
i hold it in, 
cry inside, 
but smile in a crowd, 
a pro at con, 
silent no sound, 
step in my shoes, 
if you dare, 
but a saying brings no news, 
your feet won't fit, 
i'll take the hit, 
cause i'm used to it, 
lost my second mother, 
nana r.i.p. 
love of a teen he used to tease, 
childhood fade away, 
i'll take it all back please, 
no friends in sight, 
close ones love you at ease, 
i feel so used, 
and abused, 
my hopes are bruised, 
this life i lose, 
cant live again, 
each minute counts, 
no one needs me, 
or wants me here, 
to help them get through life, 
i wonder why, 
my life is shy, 
of excitement and glee, 
grow up a loner, 
solitary me, 
just me at start, 
just me at end, 
gives me a break, 
i need my friend, 
someone who'll listen, 
and care for my thoughts, 
my conscience, 
guardian angel, 
the only good reason to live this life.