Lay me down

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92356
United States
34° 26' 15.2052" N, 116° 53' 27.7224" W

i dont have you anymore i feel so alone
i keep hearing alarms screaming it just seems so dark
My eyes won't stop crying
this pain won't stop coming
i just want to sleep and not wake up
i want the cuts to get deeper
the blood to stop flowing
the air to just stop
i was a mistake and now i know the truth
i wish you had the faith in me but i shouldnt question why not
because from you own words i haven't given a lot
you speak it in anger and that's what hurts the most
when the burriel comes you'll be the first to toast
part of me says you're just mad
part of me says its just about time
lastly it just says you never were meant to live
it has been said the world has came
the words been spread
this how i was to become dead
my bed has been made
the scars are open
your words feel like lemons and salt poured inside
i tried to hold on but i lost all my pride
just step on my heart it'll be more easier
cover my mouth because thats what you want
cover my eyes for you wont have to look at me
civer my ears i dont want to hear it
please when i die please pretendyou'll care
please when you tell me you love me act like you mean it
when you hug me over my casket
make sure thats what you feel dont do it for show
because all around the people will know
when you say you're sorry just know you killed me
why couldnt you just let me be
didnt couldnt you just see the real me
know that i tried
know that i cried
know that i was alone
know that how i messed up
and how i wasnt suppose to live and you know that
dont you know i cry in my sleep
i beg for you to look my way
i could barely make it through the day
dont you know im so scared to close my eyes
that i shake in my sleep
sometimes i just cant sleep
i stay awake thinking just if i could
only hoping one day you would
be in your arms like when i was little and you look at me say everything will be okay
but never the words you dare to say
when you find me dead dont worry
about a funeral dont waste your money
dont act like youll care
dont fake your tears
just burn me down and flush my ashes
havent done anything
so i never mattered
please know that i just wanted you to love me like you did
im sorry i dissapointed you
just lay me down and know i loved you i did.

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Comments

marinmendoza24

always stay strong and keep faith within god even when things are tough,its a struggle know that pains only temporary.

savigirl14

Wow this poem made me speechless. It has so much emotion and its truly amazing. Thanks for writing this poem. Please read my poems and tell me what you  think.

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