Struggling to live,

Struggling to breathe.

I feel as if I have been drowned,

And murdered in the sea.

 

Alone in my room,

Staring at the wall.

Attempting to drown out the noise,

In my head that threatens,

To become my downfall.

 

My head screams "die",

My heart says "live".

I am losing the battle,

And the will to exist.

 

Staring at the wall,

I burst out in tears

As I remember,

The deed that I must evidently do.

 

My mind is at war,

With my heart.

And my head.

And I will eventually lose this battle,

And attempt to be dead.

 

But I am a failure,

And cause nothing but pain.

As I wake up in the hospital,

And am filled with shame.

 

My family' a wreck,

But they don't really care.

I am the black sheep,

Who isn't really there.