The pitter patter of my heart suddenly increases.

Sweat quickly invades the palms of my hands.

Heat caresses the caramel pigment of my cheeks

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts

A lump takes over my throat

I’m scared of my brains’ own inner workings

The intricacies of my mentality initiate fear

Each word carefully considered because it’s troubling to express honesty

It’s easy to speak to the public

It’s easy to communicate with family

It’s easy to converse with friends

They all hear what they’ve been told

But how do you speak to yourself?

A brain can lie to a heart

But a heart only accepts truth

So how can I express truth?

Honesty?

Vulnerability?

Only here to this reflection

I’ll tell you my friend

Because you will listen and you will understand

You feel what I feel

You see what I see

You hear what I hear 

You accept not what you’ve been told but what your whole body knows

I’m here for you my friend and you have always been there for me

Like the dark outline behind me on a sunny day

You’ve always got my back

My mimicking companion

You’re always around

I cannot express how gracious and understanding you are

No one can hear what I hear except you.

My identical confidant