Internal Conflict
I hesitate.
Replaying your comment in my head.
Say something.
Say anything.
Speak up.
Speak OUT.
But enough though I want to,
I don't say anything.
I don't.
Not a sound exits my lips.
I want to speak.
But I don't want to argue.
Or fight.
Or get in trouble.
Even though I want to.
I don't say anything.
Another comment.
Another dilemma.
Another internal conflict.
Don't say that.
Don't say this.
Don't say anything.
Even though I want to,
I don't say anything.
If I never speak,
I will never encounter conflicts.
If I ever speak,
I will never have the upper hand.
Even though I want to,
I don't say anything.
I can control my voice,
But I say something.
And I never I made a mistake.
Once I have spoken,
They will never see me the same again.
Even though I wanted to,
I shouldn't have said anything.