Externally there's smiles and joy
"Hi, how are you today?"
"Im fantastic! And you?"
Inside it's not meant-
It's void, it's untrue
But outside it's the expected
The rules! I must subdue
It makes not a difference to which day
It could be great...or much worse, but the issue still remains
The more I wish to obtain,
The faker my jubilance must be played
I am not very open
I have a short hand of friends
I talk very little and enjoy silent nights in
But at work I am forced to be a whole other person
Something consumes me!
My person, my grin
I must have an open and friendly relation
My motivation, my goal
Is the money for the road
But inside my true being is to be put on hold
Put on hold says the man with my check in his hand
And my peaceful inversion is disguised by demand
Again, I must subdue!
But please dont be fooled
It's only a mirage, my commitment, nothing true.