Innocent Black
Dear mother,
You wait for me in the places I can't see.
There, you patiently scowl from the actions I do.
They insult the meaning of you in my life,
But the love, I didn't ponder, existed,
Till the last drop of pain left out of your body.
You hated me because you didn't truly know me,
So I believed that your love for me was nothing
Like dust in the loneliest corner
That no one bothers to pick up.
I didn't know everything I was is a lie.
Passion is mostly driven by anger,
I had to be everything you despised.
Blindly following my own destruction,
My eyes masked the murdering the knife
I used to cut you out of my life.
Your personality and faith harden my feelings for you.
You didn’t truly love me.
I know that now.
The person she created was dead
From the hopes and dreams
My mother crushed after so many years.
Time replacing your pride
In winning a battle,
Which ceased to exist from your mind
The moment you died.
I am covered in roses where
Thorns had not blood,
And my words held no meaning
To shield away the mistakes
I was accounted for
Behind your closed eyes.
Your lies and fake love skinned my heart.
You didn’t truly love me.
I know that now,
So I will let you lie in peace
Thinking that I am someone who adored,
For I loathed you more than anything.
Sincerely,
Your loving daughter